a matter of teys.t

Today… 
I am overwhelmed…
truly humbled…
and I have to admit
it just blows my mind just thinking…
how could You…?
why did You…?
what for…?
Even if I know I don’t deserve it…
words fail to paint the awe that’s in my heart right now
knowing that You did it anyway…
for me.  
The price paid is just beyond my imagination…
all for love? all for me…?
In my eyes, I’m not worth it.
In yours, I am.
I don’t see it. Yet you do.
I am condemned from the beginning…
waiting for my sentence to be served.
Yet You come and write My name on the sand…
How was I to know that you knew my name?
And the stones…
What else is left to do when you threw those stones…
not at me… but far away?   
How do I repay You?
I have nothing that You need…
And yet everything that You want…
So I will give You what I have…
Because it’s all I that I could give…
I will give you my broken heart…
Both the ugliness and beauty that’s within…
Because that is all You want and ask for…
And that is all I have to bring… 
Today You are no longer up in the clouds
Where I imagine heaven to be…
Now all I need to do is bow my head …
And heaven is right inside of me. 
For that I am forever grateful…  
  

O love that will not let me go I rest my weary soul in Thee I give Thee back the life I owe That in thine ocean depths its flow My richer, fuller be O Light that followest all my way I yield my flickering torch to Thee My heart restores its borrowed ray That in thy sunshines glow its day May brighter, fairer be O Joy you seek me through the pain I cannot close my heart to thee I trace the rainbow through the rain And feel the promise is not vain That morn shall tearless be